Us reloaders have access to hornady's xtp-hp and Speer gold dots hp. I have 4.25" barrel 9mm and trying to decide between which of these bullets to handload in 124gr version. I heard that hornady's xtp's generally penetrate deeper but with less expansion compared to the gold dots. Which bullet would you handload for self-defense? Don't really care about their price difference as I'm willing to pay more if it's a better self-defense bullets that's going to save my life. Thanks for the feedback!