Hang in there!
I know what you're going through. I had 5 hand surgeries to my right hand several years back. Damn near lost my trigger finger.
Had an excellent orthopedic surgeon. After the infection was under control, he had to skin my hand to remove stretched out bad skin after it started making new skin.
He asked if I wanted to watch. I told him it didn't bother me, I'd skinned lots of coons before!
Get well soon!