After being in the hospital for a month fighting her 5th cancer in 38 years, we buried my Mother yesterday. As bad as it sounds, Christmas hasn't gotten a lot of attention this year. Anxious to have the Grandkids gathered around when I can give them the attention they deserve.
Sorry to hear that. It's never a good time, but this has to be the worst time of year.
My Dad died last January. This is my Mother's first Anniversary (Dec.22) without him, her first Christmas without him, her first New Years without him, and her first Birthday (Jan 3) without him. So She's going through it. 57 years and they never spent more than a couple nights away from each other.
I share your pain. It never really gets better, you just get kinda used to it for lack of a better term. And I hope it means something when I say Merry Christmas to you and your family.