I've always had a hard time with the loss of a bird dog. For me I think it's because my dog go's with me everyday, unconditionally loves me, never talks back, brings me joy - could go the whole day not speaking hardly a word but communicating in perfect harmony. Hard pressed for a man like me to find that in a person.
I don't know how to deal with your loss, I don't envy you the task, just take care of yourself.
Sorry for your loss, Jeff
