Let me just say, I am not Godly. I don't like saying that but its the truth. I have never read the Bible. I do pray to God all the time. I am thankful for my lot in life. I hope he hears me, i hope it matters. There is a famous fisherman that speaks of God at the end of his shows. He always says " WHEN IT BECAME REAL FOR ME" words coming from your heart instead of your head. Maybe that's where i have not gone. I will struggle and find my way, i hope. And thank you to some of the folks here for writing thoughts that make me think, I Can Do Better.