Folks who "know" as "much" as you,will do best by asking questions,rather than giving "answers". Your DUMBfhuqktitude is glaring. Congratulations?!?
Bless your heart for TRYING.
Hint..................
Brad says: "Can't fault Rick for his pity letting you back on the fire... but pity it was and remains. Nothing more, nothing less. A sad little man in a sad little dream."