Seek help crossdresser.
Though my gut tells me that you're chick from the 8th or 9th grade, well into your development as some sorta' weird dominatrix scenario, I'll acknowledge that there's an outside chance that you are actually of male gender.
If that is the case, and you were ever to speak to any NUMBER of Campfire characters it's my pleasure to know, it is YOU that would be seeking help, Boyo,....at a hospital emergency room.
Now why don't you give "Leslie" a call, and go meet her down at Target, Dipchit.
GTC