Hang in there. That which does not kill you will make you stronger. I’m living proof of that. “They” say pain is God’s way of letting you know you are still alive. If I knew I was gonna live this long, I would have taken better care of myself. I’m presently recuperating from Covid caught in Oct 2020. Wound up with Covid pneumonia, Covid heel and toes, trach, stage 4 sacral wound big enuff to put my fist in, colostomy, about 10 operations and abradments. Was on a ventilator and 3 of us survived. Woke up and could only move my thumbs and speak with trach button. Wound up amputating toes and heel and eventually the left leg. Woke up in a foreign land run by socialists in the highest office. Spent 14 months away from home in specialty hospitals and nursing homes. Caught pneumonia about 6 X, numerous UTIs, Foley catheter for 7.5 MONTHS and intermittently for non flo and operations. Also had breathing meds to react to heart meds. FaceTimed wife goodbye on a borrowed cell phone. Sons planned my funeral for 3 weeks couldn’t find my flash drive with my plans. Feel like Lazarus - shouldn’t be here above ground. Only prayers, providence, and a good wife brought me thru this. You have a soul and will live somewhere forever and you have a choice as to where. When you are totally dependent upon others for your care and well being, it humbles you. You appreciate each and every little thing. I know about pain too and often wondered how Christ willingly bore the pain of the cross. Another thing, phantom pain is very much real. Often have bouts of it in nonexistent leg. On the mend at home now. Driving and moving about in wheelchair, Walker and some with cane. Working on my main most job of spoiling grandkids, mentoring young people, cooking and shooting pistols and rifles. Still have problems sleeping and flashbacks. Wife too. Hope you get well soon.
