If you go to see him, and I hope you do, try not to dwell on scenarios of how the reunion will take place but just go as the person you are to see the man he's become. Expect little but look for all the good you can find, and you will gain from the experience. Maybe a little and maybe a lot, but you will gain more self confidence and self reliance. It seems like a big step now but big steps can bring big gains in our lives. Go see him.
I agree with Ricky. Go without expectations (difficult to do, I know). If he begins to slip into his abusive mode, leave. Remember,
you are in control, not him.
I think if you don't go, you may regret it later (perhaps after he has died, and there is no chance of talking to him face-to-face).
Pray as you are able, even if it's just to cry out to God. He will accompany you on this journey, give you strength, and hold you up when you need it.
My prayers are with you.
Penny
