Well... Steve, let me be totally "honest" as well.
I just COULDN'T put Fred "down"... so my oldest son did the "dirty deed" FOR me... and so, I'm not nearly as "brave" as you thought, eh, my friend?
Sorry to "disappoint", but sometimes... some things are just "too hard"... or hurt too much.
Obviously, like you... I've never "gotten-over-it", either.
Ron
No better friend than a loyal dog!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!