Deflave: Speaking as the child of a late in life recovered "working alcoholic" I can attest to you that your life will be fuller and more rewarding (happier!) once your recovery is completed.
It took my father two difficult "tries" to recover from his drinking problem but once he did so, he lived the last 17 years of his life sober, involved with family and friends and very happy.
Let me know if there is anything I can do to enable your recovery.
Pardon my slow response to your post I have been busy with spring upon us here in SW Montana and had not seen this til now.
Best of luck and wishes for you.
Hold into the wind
VarmintGuy
Keep sending positive thoughts and prayers his way VG and you need to watch the video clip his wife took....
From the video, you can see Flave has a quite a ways to go in his quest for sobriety... Flave's wife filmed him falling-down drunk on the stairs, laughing like a loon, and cursing in the presence of a minor!!! Sometimes seeing a snippet of what a person really looks like when they are under the devilish spell of alcohol can wake them up.
