I am sorry for your loss Hubert. I lost my wife 9 years ago. The first year is really tough. I had friends come forward to me and they all said don't do anything for a year. Meaning don't sell your house, buy a new car ,etc. Trust me you are not thinking straight. I said to my family the loss of Terry was a tragedy but other families have had to endure worse tradegies. I said to myself I can live the rest of my life in the toilet or not in the toilet. I chose not to be in the toilet. I never had been to church (United) since I was a kid but something drew me into going. That really helped. I looked forward to going every Sunday. Take care and look after yourself and your family. PM me anytime if you want to talk. Jim