We were married for 56 years . her last 5 years were a living hell for her. I had to take care of her like a Baby , I dident mind doing it as I was retired and dident have anything else to do.. She has been gone for 5 years and 2 monthes now and I miss her as much as the day she died.. this time of the year is the worst for me I think of her all my waking hours Christmas was her favorite time of the year... We were married on Christmas eve and there was 2 feet of snow on when we went on our honeymoon... thanks all for the thoughts.