So sorry you're going through this. Clearly your grief is an indication of how great she was. It's ok to be a little numb right now. Do consider grief counseling or at least have a few friends you can be around. Put off any big decisions for a while. I'm willing to listen if you need to vent.

“You never need fear a man, no matter what his size. When danger threatens, call on me, and I will equalize.”
Samuel Colt.

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