Joan,
It's your Imagination,simply Pretend with it the manner which best "soothes" your Brokedick/Clueless Fhuqk Realities. Congratulations?!?
Do not "forget",that Imitation is THE most Sincere form of Flattery and pardon my subliminal affects...consuming your Pea Brain. You are doing "GREAT"! Laughing!
Bless your heart for trying.
Hint....................