It’s a tough road. I was a widower at 43 - since remarried. Lost my first wife to Leukemia in 2013. She had been sick on and off since age 35. Left me and three kids. With her medical history, there was always that heightened expectation, but it never makes it easier when it finally happens.
Be sure and take good care of yourself. Eat well, get the proper amount of sleep. Get up and get going like you normally would. Get help if you need it. It’s expected that you will be mourning but watch for depression. My wife passed mid-October and the Holidays were the worst thing to get through that first year. We had lots of family & friends around throughout that time, but afterwards they naturally went back to their lives while you are now having to figure out your new normal. Even after nearly eight years, there’s not a single day I don’t think about her. I don’t tell my new wife that though.
Happy to listen if you need a sympathetic ear. PM anytime.
God bless!
