I know you can't afford a camera and produce your own Avatar and that WAS "mean" of me to infer. I am sorry. LAUGHING! Congratulations?!?
Bless your heart for Whining.
Hint.
Laughing!................
Brad says: "Can't fault Rick for his pity letting you back on the fire... but pity it was and remains. Nothing more, nothing less. A sad little man in a sad little dream."