Your "perceptions" are solely your's. Congratulations?!?
Pardon your aspirations/hopes,being welllllll shy of any/all designators,besides Dreamer.
Bless your heart,for TRYING sooooo hard.
Hint.
Laughing!...............
Brad says: "Can't fault Rick for his pity letting you back on the fire... but pity it was and remains. Nothing more, nothing less. A sad little man in a sad little dream."