In order to renew your status here, you need to eat crow and admit that you've lost it. Quit being a stubborn victim and by all means QUIT posting personal info about other members.That is psychotic behavior and this is one of the main reasons people are piling on you.
If you can't see that, you are really messed up in the head and need some help. Please get it because I personally don't think you're that bad of a guy.
It doesen't make you less of a man to ask for help.
The deer hunter does not notice the mountains
"I fear all we have done is to awaken a sleeping giant and fill him with a terrible resolve" - Isoroku Yamamoto
There sure are a lot of America haters that want to live here...
