I’m sorry to hear all that.
My own kids are ages 6 and nineteen. I love being a dad and look forward to eventually being a grandfather. My wife and I have a somewhat less than ideal relationship. I have a handful of hobbies and several interest from my small garden to gun collecting, shooting, my dog, hunting and fishing occasionally, reading about history and various things that interest me, and discussing politics and philosophy, and attending a church.
Your hobbies and especially your interest don’t need to be expensive just find a few things that you really enjoy thinking about and working on. Even more important reach out to your kids and really try reconnecting. I’m assuming that you probably have younger grandkids that would love to hear from grandpa. Having loved ones that you feel bonded to and some things that you care about make a world of difference in how you feel about life.
