I have been at or near the bottom a time or two....
You have health issues that are going to limit your time here.
I would say make the best of what you have left.... and mend the relationships you do have if possible.
Get up early every morning, get the coffee going and get the day started... and keep moving forward.
At the end of every day, you make a list for tomorrow that has two columns.. this is what I need to get done today, and this is what needs to get done this week.
Before you know it.... you will have the house clean, yard all square, garage organized and your life uncluttered and you will find reason to be up and moving every day.
