Scott, I do not choose to believe in God. I have no choice. I asked Him to come into my heart and the Truth has set me free of the curse of the flesh and the belief of only that which I see. I can not go back to where I was, no more than you can not see that which you have seen. HE said HE does not exist for those who do not believe, so for those, they are also correct in that there is no God. Small wonder Hitler chose the path he did.
I was given a choice and I chose the path but no, I cannot go back.
