I hear you brother. Its a tough subject. There is plenty of scripture than can be described as harsh and "nothing morally right about it". I listened to an atheist describe his quest to understand the Bible. He decided to hand write it in order to not miss a word. Afterwards he was even more entrenched in his atheism. His response was there is no way he could worship a God as cruel as the one described in the Bible. Though this guy is not a believer, he did understand that aspect of the Bible more than 99% of "Christians". I'm not insinuating God is cruel, but that justice and wrath can be easily mistaken.
