I understand that perfectly. I operated that way for nearly 20 years. The question then you need to ask yourself is,"Can God speak to me separately,one on one today,rather than me getting all my answers from what he told somebody else 2000 years ago.
I'm not saying that what God said to them isn't true or relevant. What I'm saying is that you need specific instruction for your life from God today, rather than trying to live it according to what he told somebody else. The whole purpose of the whole Bible is for you to understand that you can have a one on one with God,in fact that's what he wants.
If you want to find God and understand your purpose,look inward and search for the real truth about everything.
Clark, with all due respect, God told those 2000 years ago exactly what he tells people today. The Bible hasn't changed, not one word. Want to hear what God has to say? Read the Bible.
