With all due respect I find nothing related to Christianity in what I’ve been able to understand from your posts. I’ve been asking questions to try to make a determination of school of thought but you don’t reveal anything other than speaking in vague generalities. In my experience that is a very big red flag that your views are likely to be in no way orthodox.
As to “Jesus is my man”; no man is self informed. All men are influenced by the thoughts of those who have gone before them. This is another red flag.
