Thankyou so Very much for the thoughts and prayers as well as a story of your family I can relate to all so well.
No worries about where I am I've been in guardian mode same as you described for awhile now, alittle over 2 weeks this time. I just came in from the garage I was just Really needing some me time. The wife made it back home and I have time to breathe for a minute, this has been ongoing for 3 years now. Your 100% on bout one thing my kids haven't ever seen me cry and won't. It has just been alittle more then I could hold for too much longer. I also am making sure she hasn't seen others crying as like you kids need to see stregnth right now in those who care for them.
Kiddo's first time was 3 years ago this happens to be a hereditery thing I've got as well as many of my family members yet with each generation it seems the problems become greater.
We thought things were good in Aug of this year as kiddo's first doc retired and a new doc took his place, the new doc declared all was good and no need for meds. Here we are 2 months later and the problems are back, we go back to the new doc who at this time actually said he thought kiddo was crying wolf. He told kiddo that to her face without first even talking with us about the idea of such a thing. He told my baby she would be in Big trouble too and a bunch of horrible things. This just compounded matters. Had to tell a doc to kiss my backside and consider what the next move was.
I had to then explain to kiddo how this was a crock and make sure she wouldn't hold back from telling us when something was wrong, again reasuring our love.
I've got so much documentation of everything I went straight to yet another series of specialist today. The new docs today couldn't believe how treatment came from the other guy and agreed with the old retired doc. However the guys today want to determine what the exact root cause is and they are working with me. All of this has pretty much taken place in the last 36 hours, I was just on overload for a bit, trying to make sure Each and Every base was covered with kiddo on First, I needed to bring her all the way to home plate.
I just hadn't had any me time for awhile and the guardian has been worn down alittle from all the driving at high speeds, the docs, the idiot doc I had words with, the worries the making sure that Grandparents, family and school nurses are all informed. I was just running alittle over the top with noway to allow any of my own time to get rid of some of the emotions.
Your right I'm hangin tight here until all is more then Good...
I may tomorrow afternoon slip out only if things are still looking ok and only if there are etleast Momma and Grandma here together. I haven't left kiddos side now up until a few minutes ago for around 36 hrs. I just needed to let go of some of the emotion. Same as I'm doing now.
Add in all of this I had to fix the new furnace which was having a problem downstairs while kiddo took a nap, my friggin truck had a dead batt this mornin and I needed it today. Just normal life stuff put it alittle over the top for a bit.
I'll get the battery fixed in the morning for now its on a charger and the wifes nice rig is in the garage if needed. To give you an idea of my commitment to family as much as I've wanted to go. I still haven't even got a tag yet, been aiming to go for weeks but I won't hunt without a tag... Kiddo has been winning the debate on that! Last time I went out was with her by my side teal hunting and she just may be at my side before I go again too.. We'll see how it goes tonight and in the morning I may pickup a tag when I get the truck fixed, then again I may not... No tag, no hunting its just the way I am...
Your dedication to Weezy and your family is also inspiring and I cannot imagine what things were like for you then! With you and the weezle family in my mind I'll keep retelling your story to myself and it will make my commitment to mine that much easier.. Thankyou!!!
See Dave the Birth of your deercamp is helping my family as I didn't know where else to let some of this out. Your thread was the first in my favorites and I clicked it, THANKYOU for Everything my friend.. I'll keep ya updated.... You wouldn't believe what typing in here and reading your story along with alittle me time can do for a guys emotions.. Thankyou Again!!!! As you and I have heard before I'm telling myself now again... ATTENTION....lol
